I cant be the only one now can I?
I just do NOT function in a school system. I can't sit still for an hour straight. Can't listen to long stories that only vaguely add to the subject and I can not read a book and just save whatever is important inside my head. I can't sit down to do my homework or quizzes and even if I somehow manage to do that for a little while, I can't answer the questions without the knowledge of the books and the lessons. I'm smart enough, finished my highschool without any trouble but now I'm in college; I have to start learning. How do people do that?
What I need is simple; someone telling me (or writing down for me) Straight facts. When A happens, you must do B.
then, I can do assignments with that knowledge. But not alone. I have to have someone beside me to answer my questions directly. "Is this +?" "yes." Simply because I'm to insecure and I'm terrified to make mistakes. (so badly that I rather quit than screw it up)
Anyway. I know this is impossible to achieve. But right now, I don't know what to do. I can't follow lessons, I can't read the books. I can't ask someone to summarize everything for me.
Now what? I'm failing terribly.
Yet I love my fellow students, my current dorm and I don't want to leave. Besides, I have no idea what to do if I quit. I have no idea who would hire a college drop out...........
it's anoying. I know I can do it dammit. I'm just completely tied down :c
Stupid god damned school systems